I'm sorry for last week. But for right now... I think if it were to be just good friends who flirt, bully, be kind and torture one another...
I think it might not be too bad. it may not be what i want. but since its what i'm gonna get. i'll gladly take it
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Monday, February 20, 2012
Reasons Good/FZ Guys Don't Reply Their Crush
1. He's tired of waiting, does this to let her know. how much has he been there for her, wants her to realize how much he means to her.
2. No. 1 didn't work. He wants to text you, then remember how much she has hurt him.
3. He's moving on.
2. No. 1 didn't work. He wants to text you, then remember how much she has hurt him.
3. He's moving on.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Why Guys Love Girls
1. The way they always smell good even if it's just shampoo.
2. The way they always find the right spot on our shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.
5. The way they kiss you and make everything alright in the world.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end its all worth while.
8. The way they are always warm even if its minus 30 degrees.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way she fishes for compliments even though you both know she's the most beautiful thing on this earth.
11. How cute they are when they argue.
12. How their hand always seems to find ours.
13. The way they smile.
14. The way you feel when you see her name on the caller id after you've had a big fight.
15. The way she says "Lets not fight anymore" even though you know an hour later.
16. The way they kiss you when youve done something nice for her.
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you".
18. Actually.. just the way they kiss you.
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then apologizing for crying over something that silly.
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt.
22. Then the way they apologize when it really does hurt. (even though we don't admit it!)
23. The way they say "I miss you".
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore. Yet regardless whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them, it matters not. Because once in your life whatever they were to the world they become the world to you. When you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without a trace of sound you know that your own life is inevitably consumed with the rhythmic beatings of her very own heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of a mind, but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.
2. The way they always find the right spot on our shoulder.
3. How cute they look when they sleep.
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms.
5. The way they kiss you and make everything alright in the world.
6. How cute they are when they eat.
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end its all worth while.
8. The way they are always warm even if its minus 30 degrees.
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.
10. The way she fishes for compliments even though you both know she's the most beautiful thing on this earth.
11. How cute they are when they argue.
12. How their hand always seems to find ours.
13. The way they smile.
14. The way you feel when you see her name on the caller id after you've had a big fight.
15. The way she says "Lets not fight anymore" even though you know an hour later.
16. The way they kiss you when youve done something nice for her.
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you".
18. Actually.. just the way they kiss you.
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.
20. Then apologizing for crying over something that silly.
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt.
22. Then the way they apologize when it really does hurt. (even though we don't admit it!)
23. The way they say "I miss you".
24. The way you miss them.
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore. Yet regardless whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them, it matters not. Because once in your life whatever they were to the world they become the world to you. When you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without a trace of sound you know that your own life is inevitably consumed with the rhythmic beatings of her very own heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of a mind, but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Monday, January 16, 2012
Argument
Common Interest :
Yes, it's true that we don't have much in common. We are like two people from different sides of the world yet somehow are lucky enough to meet. The differences are infinite yet the things we have in common are so few.
But I do not think that this is a good enough reason to reject a relationship that you can be happy in... Isn't life all about learning and trying new things? Don't you think life can be just a little more exciting if you are with a person who does not do all the same things as you do?
I think you already know this but things change. Interests change. People change. What if one day the guy you think is the same with you changes, and you don't? What happens if you change one day, and he doesn't?
I'm guessing you think that having the common interest will help keep the relationship alive therefore keep the feelings true. But i feel that, its the other way around. Its being in love, then learning to accept who or what your partner is, and next what he or she might become...
So yes, we have a lot of differences, but the 1 thing we might have in common which is the most important is that we have feelings for each other... It won't be easy, but nothing worth it ever is.
2. Friends
On this, you have always made your feelings pretty clear. As far as i know, you dislike the group of girls i hang out in secondary school, correct? But other then this, you mostly dislike Meng Yen right? Because honestly, i don't see you not getting along with the other girls, other then Chong Yee which is the same type as Meng Yen. Please let me know if this is untrue.
(The other girls such as Lai Yan, June Yi, Wai Mun and Yeng Sze.)
So let me tell you something, none of us, including the girls, have never been at some time unhappy or pissed at Meng Yen. She's bossy, gets unhappy at even the littlest things and really likes thing done her way. We guys when alone have talked about her before and sometimes the girls to. But what we realised and i hope you would to is that, she after all this time hangs out more with people older then her because of her brother. Due to that and reading peoples blogs, she already she knows what she wants in life and what she wants to do. She holds her own opinions strongly, works hard when there's a job to do and expects the same from everyone. But when there's no work, she can sometimes be the only girl in class who knows how to have fun, hang out and have conversations with. In short she's kinda like a wall, that is hard when we push hard, but soft if u know how to push softly. (Dumb example i know, but its what i got)
So being guys that we are, we tolerate her, make jokes with her and be happy when she's ok. Or just leave her alone when she's pissed. Sometimes she pulls one of us to complain and complain so we sit and listen because thats what friends do. Some people like you and me keep it inside, people like her talks to people about it.
Lastly, do you know any uncles and aunties who friends from both sides mix with each other? It normally doesn't happen. The husband might mix with the wife's friends and the wife might do the same, but normally friends from either side will not normally be good friends unless you already come from the same group.
Its something like Aaron's party 2 years ago, when he also called his friends from Puchong A to the party. I'm not really sure but the 2 schools did not mix much did they?
3. Responsibility
On this, I also agree with you that being in a relationship demands an amount of responsibility from but is really that much until you cannot afford to be happy? In the future, you'll still be working, or studying, doing your house chores, learning new instruments won't you? Does this mean unless you're not working or studying you're not gonna be in a relationship? Even a housewife has to get married before becoming a housewife... I understand that you have a major exam this year, i really do, so i understand your reason for wanting to wait another year, but I just want you to know that holidays get lesser and lesser as you get older. So when are you gonna have time for another person in your life?
I'll also like to ask you, is it being with me too much a responsibility for you? Do you think I'll take too much of your time or get angry when i don't? I would just really like to know what you think of me. Think first, decide, then carry on reading...
For a person who knows what it feels like to not have you, he will know the difference between not having you, and too busy to reply a message so replies later. I have no idea what i might be like in the future, but right now i feel like an sms saying "busy now, reply later sorry, <3" and meaning it would be all I need to wait for you. Even if later, you're in a good mood, i might merajuk a bit to play with you also or just accompany you when you're not. Or you're tired you could just tell me and i will understand. i might not be happy, but i won't take it out on you because its what i want to do...
I'm in university as well, so its not like I will be waiting for you the entire day. I might be busy as well, hopefully you can do the same for me....
4. Your mum
This is the only thing i cannot argue you with. I am who i am, if your mother doesn't like me, i am just so very sorry. I might change in the future, but for now i can only hope for your mum to like me as she gets to know me.
5. Relaxing??
relaxing is soooo not the word i was hoping for but, at least is something. x) makes me feel like ogawa...
thoughts?
Yes, it's true that we don't have much in common. We are like two people from different sides of the world yet somehow are lucky enough to meet. The differences are infinite yet the things we have in common are so few.
But I do not think that this is a good enough reason to reject a relationship that you can be happy in... Isn't life all about learning and trying new things? Don't you think life can be just a little more exciting if you are with a person who does not do all the same things as you do?
I think you already know this but things change. Interests change. People change. What if one day the guy you think is the same with you changes, and you don't? What happens if you change one day, and he doesn't?
I'm guessing you think that having the common interest will help keep the relationship alive therefore keep the feelings true. But i feel that, its the other way around. Its being in love, then learning to accept who or what your partner is, and next what he or she might become...
So yes, we have a lot of differences, but the 1 thing we might have in common which is the most important is that we have feelings for each other... It won't be easy, but nothing worth it ever is.
2. Friends
On this, you have always made your feelings pretty clear. As far as i know, you dislike the group of girls i hang out in secondary school, correct? But other then this, you mostly dislike Meng Yen right? Because honestly, i don't see you not getting along with the other girls, other then Chong Yee which is the same type as Meng Yen. Please let me know if this is untrue.
(The other girls such as Lai Yan, June Yi, Wai Mun and Yeng Sze.)
So let me tell you something, none of us, including the girls, have never been at some time unhappy or pissed at Meng Yen. She's bossy, gets unhappy at even the littlest things and really likes thing done her way. We guys when alone have talked about her before and sometimes the girls to. But what we realised and i hope you would to is that, she after all this time hangs out more with people older then her because of her brother. Due to that and reading peoples blogs, she already she knows what she wants in life and what she wants to do. She holds her own opinions strongly, works hard when there's a job to do and expects the same from everyone. But when there's no work, she can sometimes be the only girl in class who knows how to have fun, hang out and have conversations with. In short she's kinda like a wall, that is hard when we push hard, but soft if u know how to push softly. (Dumb example i know, but its what i got)
So being guys that we are, we tolerate her, make jokes with her and be happy when she's ok. Or just leave her alone when she's pissed. Sometimes she pulls one of us to complain and complain so we sit and listen because thats what friends do. Some people like you and me keep it inside, people like her talks to people about it.
Lastly, do you know any uncles and aunties who friends from both sides mix with each other? It normally doesn't happen. The husband might mix with the wife's friends and the wife might do the same, but normally friends from either side will not normally be good friends unless you already come from the same group.
Its something like Aaron's party 2 years ago, when he also called his friends from Puchong A to the party. I'm not really sure but the 2 schools did not mix much did they?
3. Responsibility
On this, I also agree with you that being in a relationship demands an amount of responsibility from but is really that much until you cannot afford to be happy? In the future, you'll still be working, or studying, doing your house chores, learning new instruments won't you? Does this mean unless you're not working or studying you're not gonna be in a relationship? Even a housewife has to get married before becoming a housewife... I understand that you have a major exam this year, i really do, so i understand your reason for wanting to wait another year, but I just want you to know that holidays get lesser and lesser as you get older. So when are you gonna have time for another person in your life?
I'll also like to ask you, is it being with me too much a responsibility for you? Do you think I'll take too much of your time or get angry when i don't? I would just really like to know what you think of me. Think first, decide, then carry on reading...
For a person who knows what it feels like to not have you, he will know the difference between not having you, and too busy to reply a message so replies later. I have no idea what i might be like in the future, but right now i feel like an sms saying "busy now, reply later sorry, <3" and meaning it would be all I need to wait for you. Even if later, you're in a good mood, i might merajuk a bit to play with you also or just accompany you when you're not. Or you're tired you could just tell me and i will understand. i might not be happy, but i won't take it out on you because its what i want to do...
I'm in university as well, so its not like I will be waiting for you the entire day. I might be busy as well, hopefully you can do the same for me....
4. Your mum
This is the only thing i cannot argue you with. I am who i am, if your mother doesn't like me, i am just so very sorry. I might change in the future, but for now i can only hope for your mum to like me as she gets to know me.
5. Relaxing??
relaxing is soooo not the word i was hoping for but, at least is something. x) makes me feel like ogawa...
thoughts?
Friday, January 13, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
Well that was fast...
Sometimes I'd just like for u to just prove me wrong... you know.
Not prove me right every single time...
Feelings my ass...
Not prove me right every single time...
Feelings my ass...
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
I'm sorry...
Yesterday really it was me who saw wrong.
I thought i actually saw that you were to be in a relationship this year 2012...
Didn't see your blog post title...
I tell you...
after for 2 weeks thinking it will be this year.
then finding out i actually have to wait 1 more whole year...
Is not a very nice feeling.
for a while there was very surprise you could actually ask me to wait for another whole year..
I keep thinking last night bout the amount of heartache i can collect in 1 year...
especially when in a month also can kinda sakit hati abit here abit there...
even worse this is actually when u say u have feelings for me.
what happens when u lost it. what am i supposed to do...
Then i keep thinking...
right now when u just have feelings for me
the feelings are the strongest,
you wanna remain just friends,
you wanna wait it out,
let the time and feelings go to waste,
let the small chance of happiness, get even smaller.
and what reason do you give me?
you dont have enough time for a relationship right now.
that u could actually give me a reason like this...is one of the main reason why i was so really very pissed yesterday.
Do you actually expect your feelings to last a whole year?
honest to yourself?
When u had a boyfriend you really love, thought was the one...
and still couldn't do it...
or is it just another excuse to tell yourself to escape again.
I'm sorry if I'm a little harsh,
but i wish to be honest with you and this is what thats really going on in my heart.
Is not just you, u think i didn't have fun this pass month?
maybe not as much as you, because i was so scared...
but i was really happy as well...
then i got a little hope.
now i'm not sure where all of it went...
everytime now, i think of you...
makes me feel sad and angry...
partly because it was really my fault that i saw wrong,
partly because i had hope that now practically dissapeared,
partly because of you who could actually dare to ask me to wait another year,
mainly because...
in the back of my heart, i think i would...
I thought i actually saw that you were to be in a relationship this year 2012...
Didn't see your blog post title...
I tell you...
after for 2 weeks thinking it will be this year.
then finding out i actually have to wait 1 more whole year...
Is not a very nice feeling.
for a while there was very surprise you could actually ask me to wait for another whole year..
I keep thinking last night bout the amount of heartache i can collect in 1 year...
especially when in a month also can kinda sakit hati abit here abit there...
even worse this is actually when u say u have feelings for me.
what happens when u lost it. what am i supposed to do...
Then i keep thinking...
right now when u just have feelings for me
the feelings are the strongest,
you wanna remain just friends,
you wanna wait it out,
let the time and feelings go to waste,
let the small chance of happiness, get even smaller.
and what reason do you give me?
you dont have enough time for a relationship right now.
that u could actually give me a reason like this...is one of the main reason why i was so really very pissed yesterday.
Do you actually expect your feelings to last a whole year?
honest to yourself?
When u had a boyfriend you really love, thought was the one...
and still couldn't do it...
or is it just another excuse to tell yourself to escape again.
I'm sorry if I'm a little harsh,
but i wish to be honest with you and this is what thats really going on in my heart.
Is not just you, u think i didn't have fun this pass month?
maybe not as much as you, because i was so scared...
but i was really happy as well...
then i got a little hope.
now i'm not sure where all of it went...
everytime now, i think of you...
makes me feel sad and angry...
partly because it was really my fault that i saw wrong,
partly because i had hope that now practically dissapeared,
partly because of you who could actually dare to ask me to wait another year,
mainly because...
in the back of my heart, i think i would...
Monday, October 10, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
You say...
You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.” - william shakespeare
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Jealousy
Nothing but a bitter feeling that makes me wanna throw up, spit everything out, and end whatever thats left...
No mood at all...
No mood at all...
Monday, January 3, 2011
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